Weeks before picture day, I talked with Bronwyn's teacher about the best way to go about the physical part of photographing her: Should we keep her in her wheelchair? Should we try another type of seating? How much time do we have for the shot? Do I get to participate? Her teacher assured me that the photographers were used to taking photos of kids with special needs, and that they were very patient and accommodating. I backed away from the cliff a little.
Upon arrival at school this morning, we went straight away to the photo session.
There was a long line.
Bronwyn got crabby.
It was our turn.
Bronwyn couldn't keep her head still.
She had a seizure.
The photographer said she didn't have time to let Bronwyn calm down and try again.
We didn't get a picture.
DEEP BREATH: I put on a brave face and when we returned to the classroom I said that it was okay, but I was having a hard time not crying! I felt so devastated... why???
I went to the gym and got some exercise. I reminded myself of what is really important.
I told myself that I had put too much emotional energy into something that wasn't really a big deal.
But my heart didn't want to listen. Maybe I just need to have an emotional day; sometimes it's just the thing. Life's a sea of emotion, and it's best to keep on swimming through.
Today's photos are of the new pinnafore that I made for Bronwyn for picture day. She sure does look adorable in it, even if I can't show you with a picture of her wearing it right now. Today's Song: "No New Tale to Tell" by Love and Rockets. Click ont the Blip.fm icon on the right hand side of the blog to hear it.