I know it has been a while since my last post. I have been spending a lot of time in deep thought, and just going through my day in slow motion; doing what feels right in the moment. Although the loss of Bronwyn is terribly painful and I miss her deeply, I am beginning to heal in small ways. I am starting to sleep better, and I'm starting to feel creative again.
One of the things that helped me was to move my sewing studio into Bronwyn's room. I had been spending a lot of time in her room, wanting to feel close to her, and Brian suggested that I move my workspace there so that I could let myself have a natural flow from grief to creativity.
The first project that I worked on was a hand sewn wool felt cover for the box that Bronwyn's ashes are in. It felt good to make something important for her as a way to initiate our shared space. I used hand dyed felted merino wool as the fabric, and linen thread for stitching. The buttons came from my collection that Bronwyn used to play with.
I am beginning to feel ready to embark on other projects and have several in the works. I plan on coming back to my blog and to the rest of the world on a more consistent basis now. Healing has multiple parts, it seems, and for me the first part was stillness. This next part will be activity and stillness together. Thank-You for your patience and support through my process. I love you.