I find myself in a mystical place of joy and sorrow. It is difficult to explain and I'm not sure that the explaining will be clarifying anyhow. So I will tell you what comforts me, what I've been doing.
Also, I have been sewing again. Not designing, that takes too much creative energy. But sewing what I know provides a meditative experience, and something for my always figity hands to do. When we left for the hospital over a month ago, I had been right in the middle of production for the holiday. So I've finished what I started and my inventory is quite impressive (it looks like I've been busier than I actually have been). Now I need to photograph everything and get it listed. I also participated in two local craft fairs with my business partner. I wasn't sure how it would feel, but it was lovely to get out and be distracted.
The clutch pictured is designed by the talented Keykalou, who has a shop on Etsy. I purchased the pattern (and the rights to sell my handmade work from her pattern) so that I could just sew without having to think. I love the shape and feel of this clutch and the way it features the fabric so nicely.
I raise my mug of tea to the day, and let the tears come when they will. Smiles and hugs follow.